I know I need to be in love

I was supposed to be a girl. I had two older brothers. My dad wanted a girl. He wanted both of my brothers to be girls. I wore girls’ baby dresses for the first six months of my life. Mom had all these clothes that she never put on my brothers. It was my responsibility to use them.

She taught me to sew, crochet, and cook. This is the reason I have been an advocate of women’s rights and breaking gender barriers. Our daughters had toy cars. They played with boys’ toys. We gave our oldest astronaut Barbie.   I taught her to love science and space and built a spaceship for her doll.

Our youngest daughter worked with me in my shop. She liked the drill press and the saw. She is a handywoman today. Our middle daughter will try anything you tell her that she can’t do. Isn’t this usually a male response?

My first girlfriend was when I was in second grade. I do not remember her name. I dated only one girl through high school. During my sophomore year in college, she announced to me that she did not think we should see each other anymore. I was all right with that. From that point, I dated a few ladies.

I wanted to find someone to love. I just needed to pick the correct one. I accepted a call to the full-time gospel ministry, changed colleges, and met my future wife the following year.

At that time, I did not know as much about love as I do today. I know that love is a verb. It is not an emotion. It is a choice. You decide who you will love and if that love will last. We do not fall in love or out of it. We stop caring about those we once cherished because of several factors. One of these is that we all change.

In marriage, we should be changing together. Growing apart needs to be recognized and avoided. We need to learn to communicate our needs, wants, and love better. The books “Five Love Languages” and “Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus” are two volumes that discuss the differences in the way we communicate.

Gary Chapman identifies five separate ways of speaking. Not all of these are verbal. Men and women can share these. Some couples accidentally know what the other means because they speak the same dialect.

John Gray separates the miscommunication between men and women into differences in culture. He also believes that once we learn this, we can have meaningful dialogue. Both men are correct as are hundreds of others that have written books or taught marriage seminars.

I knew I needed to be in love. The Carpenters song adds that believing there is someone for me was hard. One of the steps I learned from Karen was that it wasn’t simple and that freedom made it more difficult. I am not perfect, and neither is Cindy.

We married because we wanted to work at loving each other. We still understand that it is for life. That life is not easy. We work at it every day. She has changed. I am not the same man she loved at first. Good intentions were a foundation. That was not where we placed our faith.

I believe that she loves me. I know her love language. I know that as a woman she cannot always understand what I try to say. I say I want to be with her. I prove it by being with her. When I put business ahead of us, she told me about it. She had the patience to let me learn the lessons at my own pace. Sometimes I can be a slow learner.

Our love has grown. It is not what it was forty-seven years ago. We are still together and love each other. Do not stop growing in your relationships. Have the courage to work hard on it.  Do not miss the opportunity to say I love you. And use all five languages when you need to. Happy Valentine’s Day.

©Copyright 2023 by Charles Kensinger

Truth or Lies

Many believe that old saying. How do you know when a politician is lying? When their mouth is moving. It seems like this is most true during an election year. The commercials that most of the candidates are running are loaded with untruths.

Some think that not telling the complete truth is not a falsehood. I believe that failure to share exact knowledge is tantamount to lying. You may agree with Bill Clinton that changing the meaning of a word is all that is needed to prevent having to admit that you are speaking lies.

 One candidate accuses another of being the person responsible for the Missouri abortion law taking effect after the repeal of Roe versus Wade. He lumps her in with every other Democrat. Another candidate doesn’t talk about the issues. She tells how her campaign is grassroots centered. We don’t know where she stands. How can we unless she tells us?

The Attorney General of Missouri had to put into effect a law that was passed before he was elected to his office. To fail to do this would have been breaking the law. His opponent lumps him in with all Republicans as supporting the overturning of Roe vs. Wade.

Most candidates are attacked based on what the other party normally stands for. Especially for those who have never held office. It is difficult to denounce the voting record of someone who has never voted. Guilt by association is the rule.

Speaking of those who have never voted. Can they claim they are not politicians? Do you have to be holding a political office to be a politician? The definition is: “a person who is professionally involved in politics, especially as a holder of or a candidate for an elected office.” If you are running for an office, you are a politician.

Candidates use the money contributed to their campaigns to purchase advertising. You do not mention the name of your competition unless you are trying to discredit them. When they are not a threat, you don’t pay to mention them. One Senatorial candidate speaks against both of her opponents. Third-party candidates are not usually even recognized by the Republicrats or Demicans. Maybe this year we may see another party emerge victorious.

I am not mentioning the names of any of these candidates because I want you to make your own decision on who to support. I also want you to choose which side of the ballot issues to choose.

The ads about the legalization of marijuana talk about making law enforcement’s job easier when the sheriff’s associations in most states consider legitimizing any illegal substances a terrible idea. What some of you do not know is that all the current illegal substances were openly used at one time in our country. Laws were passed to protect those that were addicted to them.

These commercials give false information about the financial benefit of changing our laws. They do not consider the cost of the problems that will be caused. Where is the information from the nineteen states that prove what they are claiming? Maybe those statistics don’t confirm the promises made.

Do your own research on the amendments and the candidates. Decide how to vote. Come to the polls on Tuesday and participate in your democratic republic. That may be where those party names came from. Who knew?

©Copyright 2022 by Charles Kensinger

TGIM, Thank God it’s Monday

Sounds wrong, doesn’t it? Sunday, we had a guest speaker. Our pastor has been sharing the book of Matthew.  He began with the upside-down kingdom that Jesus described in the Sermon on the Mount.

Our guest minister told us that we should not be focusing on Friday when our work week ends. We should wait for Monday when we get to work and be with our co-workers for the week. That is topsy-turvy at its best.  

I remember when I began a new job after twenty-five years with one company. It was my dream job. I was called to be a workplace minister while in college. I told everyone how happy I was to be at work even on a Monday. I had reached burnout at my last employer.

I did not know what that was. All I knew was that God wanted me to be a full-time gospel minister.

I knew I wasn’t to be a music minister. I can’t sing. I have trouble playing the radio. I love to talk. One-on-one is my favorite crowd. In high school, I forced myself to take speech. My first talk almost killed me. I thought that five minutes of talking about myself would never end. In three years, I learned to be extroverted and speak to any crowd.

My listeners may not enjoy it as much as I do. I had to experience public speaking to allow me to be more comfortable when I was called to be a minister. All I knew was preaching and singing. If I was not willing to be a preacher, I would not have viewed myself as a minister.

Now, I can proclaim a call to every Christian to be a minister in the workplace. My friend Jim told me years ago that he had asked God to call him to youth ministry. He was told no. He has spent over fifty years owning his own business. He shows his customers, vendors, and employees what it means to be a follower of Christ.

Where is your place of ministry? We all need to find our calling and where we are expected to serve others. Those will be both believers and unbelievers. Servants must find their pace to be of use. I have heard this for years.

It sounds strange to thank God for Mondays. We should be excited to share our faith. Not just in certain circles or at church. Our jobs are where we spend a third or more of our time. We should also be witnessing, serving, and ministering in this arena.

Time is considered precious by all of us. We must work while we have light. The darkness can be overpowering. When we do our part, the world will be a better place. Enjoy your Monday.

©Copyright 2022 by Charles Kensinger

Dancing with a dog

The first time I saw “To Dance with the White Dog” was in 1993 in the Hallmark Hall of Fame. That was when it was broadcast on CBS on Sunday nights. Since then, I have viewed it many times. If you want to see it, I watched it recently on Hallmark Movies Now.

The story of a married couple celebrating their fiftieth anniversary in 1966 is powerful for many reasons. First was the love story between an elderly couple. In 1993 my wife and I had only been married for seventeen years. It was difficult to imagine that we might make it to our fiftieth. We are only four years away from that landmark date.

An African American friend of this couple is shown as being treated as one of the family. At first, you may think that she was hired as a cook, housekeeper, or nanny. That does not appear to be the case as the story unfolds. This is significantly different from another movie, “The Help,” set at the same time. Both films are set in the southern US.

The families are shown to be what I would call Christian or religious. They are not shown in any church. The male lead character points out the discrepancies between the Bible and horticultural science. His wife points out that the scripture is not a science text. While many scientific facts appear in different chapters and verses, I believe this is a true statement.

When his wife dies, he has difficulty adjusting to being alone. A white dog appears, and his children and grandchildren do not see it when they come around. Most days the waking hours are occupied with the changing of the guard as the families alternate staying around his house and orchard.

The old man decides to take a trip to a reunion for the college where he and his wife met. The dog travels with him. He does not bother to tell anyone in the family where he is going. One grandson knows. He is asked not to tell anyone unless there is an emergency. Of course, one comes up.

I’ll stop with my explanation of the plot and sequence of events. If you decide to watch this film, I hope I have not spoiled any of the drama and mystery. The lesson of the movie is to cherish those that we love. At any moment they may no longer be with us.

©Copyright 2022 by Charles Kensinger

The class of 1972 had its dreams.

Do you remember the Statler Brothers’ song “The Class of Fifty-Seven”? I’m from the class that has celebrated our fiftieth reunion this year. I also have two grandsons in the class of 2022. Fifty years is half of a century. That is a long time.

Things get complicated when you get past nineteen. But you and your class had your dreams. Stop for a minute or two and remember those dreams. My dream was to become a journalist. I am now a columnist. I’ve not worked as a reporter.

Many of my classmates had dreams of becoming mothers or fathers and raising another generation of decent human beings. At our reunion in June, I visited with many of these classmates and talked about their children and grandchildren. These dreams seem to have been fulfilled.

A few of our class members joined the military and I have not discovered any that died during their military careers. We did lose over forty in the last fifty years. The toughest were the ones that had passed before we even had our ten-year reunion.

I don’t have a count of the number of my classmates that are in ministry. I am sure of at least six and probably more that I am not aware of. Some are retired and others have gone home. Others are just now accepting the call to something beyond themselves.

I spoke with many of these graduates and reconnected with old friends and some that I never knew in High School. We saw improvements that have been made to the building. We heard of other details of construction that should be completed this year.

Almost all of us are retired or will be joining those ranks in the next few years. At least one is starting a new career as a servant of Greene County. He is running for an office and is unopposed. We have decided to start new careers or projects. All are embracing being grandparents and like my mother believe grandkids are so great, that we should have had them first.

Some of us have reached our goals and have created new ones. Life may continue for some of us to see another thirty or forty years. We still have time to accomplish our dreams. I wish to lead as many to Christ as I can before I enjoy my life with my Heavenly Father.

That is the goal I have had for almost fifty years now. I write to educate and to encourage. We must become the followers of Christ to accomplish the dream of reaching as many as we can for the Kingdom. I hope you have joined this dream.

©Copyright 2022 by Charles Kensinger

A slap can be a positive thing.

It doesn’t matter what film won the Oscars this year. No one cares who the best actress was. All anyone has heard about is Will Smith slapping Chris Rock. Some believe that Smith was in the wrong. He got up from his seat next to his wife and attacked the hilarious host of the awards and attacked him. He returned to his seat and cursed at the man that offended him and his wife.

All Rock did was comment that G.I. Jane 2 must be in the process of being made. An innocuous comment that was considered funny by some. The startled audience quickly learned Will’s view of these words.

Jada Smith’s husband considered it an affront to his wife. It was visible that she had shaved her head as Demi Moore did for G.I. Jane. That had to be funny. Right? It was as funny as a screen door on a submarine. As funny as referring to MLK Day as Martin Looter King Day.  As funny as asking a fat man or woman when their baby is due.

Our society decided years ago that humor can be used as an excuse for any insensitive remark. Kids apologize and say they were sorry for a remark when they get in trouble for it. “I didn’t mean anything by it” is a common response to hurt feelings. Is this an acceptable excuse for bullying someone?

I do not believe it is. We are angry when we hear that a young person has committed suicide because of online name-calling and verbal abuse. Parents have to remove their teens’ access to social media to avoid their being terrorized by school acquittances. Some school boards have been forced to spend large amounts of money defending their policies because this abuse is done on campus with personal phones.

Bullying is one of those things that is viewed differently by those who are involved. If I call you Tiny and you are six foot two and weigh 350 pounds, you can laugh or knock my head off. It was just a joke, right? Not always. So-called jokes are often insensitive or even veiled derision.

I refer to myself as being good-looking. I tell people that I like to point that out because sometimes others don’t notice that immediately upon meeting me. I can do that to be funny. The person I am calling not attractive is myself. The joke is on me.

If I bully you, the joke is on or about you. I used to tell dumb blond jokes. Then I realized that blonds might be listening. Pollack jokes were funny for a while until I learned that this was a derogatory name for citizens of Poland. I am offended by the N-word, the J word, the S words, and other words and phrases that are used to belittle others. Sorry about that Tiny.

One particular celebrity has taken the forefront of bullying on one TV program. Other shows are used to scare, intimidate, and make fun of contestants competing for prizes. They sign agreements before the recording of the program that prevents them from taking legal action after it is broadcast. Seems like hypocrisy to me.

Time will tell if Will Smith accomplished anything in the entertainment world that is a part of his and Jada’s life. I hope that slap was loud enough to be remembered throughout the entertainment community as well as the rest of our country. What you think is funny may get you slapped, and we may laugh at you and not with you.

©Copyright 2022 by Charles Kensinger

Hate Crimes

This term is being used in the Ozarks again. It isn’t related to any of the news stories on the national or international level. We aren’t talking about the latest person to be killed by a police officer. It isn’t even a report of how the January 6th Washington D.C. rioters and looters are being prosecuted. Someone wrote some bad words in a bathroom at Kickapoo High School.

https://www.ky3.com/2022/03/23/school-leaders-investigate-racially-motivated-hate-speech-inside-vandalized-kickapoo-high-school-bathroom/

These words are so awful that they will not be released to the public. Springfield Public Schools has a zero-tolerance for hate speech. They also say they have zero tolerance for violence. Earlier this year a student was attacked and beaten by three classmates. As far as the parents know nothing other than a few days of suspension was inflicted upon the assailants. I will be watching the news for updates on the heinous crime of writing certain words and drawing related images on the walls of the toilet.

There are words that can get you fired from your job. That is if you work for people who want to appear politically correct. If it does not make the news, it isn’t wrong. Bigotry is only wrong if you hate the right people.

We protect those who are like us. We do not care about you when you aren’t part of our group. That classification may be anything. The color of your skin, your hair color, your lifestyle, or your financial category are only a few examples. Television news is full of us against them broadcasts.

This is why I am glad God lead me away from a career as a journalist. As a columnist on my own website, I can write and publish what I believe is the truth. When you don’t agree you simply stop reading. This is freedom of speech.

A teacher told our class years ago that we have the freedom to sling a dead cat over our heads if we want to. That freedom ends when the cat comes into contact with someone else. The words on the wall of the john or jane at Kickapoo could hit someone in their feelings. We must stop them before they do. God forbid that someone’s feelings are hurt.

Stop the bullying SPS. But don’t worry about the students that are attacked on your grounds. Since the family isn’t raising a fuss, it isn’t that important. Be sure you issue the proper press release when a story gets out to the media. It is easier to ask for forgiveness than permission, isn’t it?

Another news story was aired today about charges against a man who hit another man outside of a local bar. The prosecutor finally filed new charges. The delay was because it was just assault until the victim died. By the way, why aren’t we demanding hate crimes charges on this alleged criminal? That’s right, while the two men are from different races, the dead man is the wrong color. Their lives don’t matter.

https://www.ky3.com/2022/03/22/greene-county-prosecutor-files-charges-beating-death-man-outside-club/

©Copyright 2022 by Charles Kensinger

Save me a place in the choir, brother.

Early in my sophomore year in high school at Hillcrest in Springfield, Missouri I was sitting in Mrs. Reba’s history class when one of my classmates fell out of his chair. It appeared he had passed out. No one else seemed worried about it except the teacher. She hobbled over and stared down at him while she called his name.

“Mark, Mark, are you alright? Does anyone know what we should do?” She was at a loss. She had never had a student pass out in class before. Veteran teachers prepare yourselves for this possibility. Not the one that this Hillcrest history teacher thought she was experiencing that day. As she speculated out loud about the possibility of loosening his belt to allow him more room to breathe Mark could not hold in his amusement any longer and he began to laugh.

The game was up. The student that had been told to go to the office was not out the door. He stayed. Mrs. Reba was exasperated beyond words. She sat down at her desk while many of Mark’s friends snickered at his coop. He had taken over the class. When the teacher fully recovered, she started the lesson once more. As we left at the bell I cannot remember if Mark had to stay after class or was sent to the office or not.

That was the day I became aware of who he was. A cross country runner, a teenage boy with a wicked sense of humor, a good friend, and brother in ministry both as a music leader and a deacon at Hamlin Baptist Church, Mark and I would experience life together over the next fifty years.                                                                                                            

My friend was taken to Heaven by his Lord and Savior on Thursday, October 28, 2001. He was 67 years old. I teased him every year when he turned a year older than I and reminded him around my birthday that I, finally had caught up with him, again.

Our friendship did not take flight until he and his family came to Hamlin several years after graduation in May of 1972. I did not know about his marriage to Lynn, another classmate, until that time. They and their three children became part of our church family, and we served our Lord together on many occasions.

He and I were asked to begin a Sunday afternoon church service at a senior housing facility by another church member. Our monthly foray into being the preacher and music leader continued for a few years. When the attendance dropped to two or three and it seemed the residents were losing interest, we moved on to other endeavors.

Mark and I were two of ten ordained to the deacon ministry at the same time. We continued to serve with that body of men. Some of the guys that were brought into that ministry with our wives that day preceded Mark to Heaven. Others left Hamlin for other churches, and one became a pastor and moved to the Kansas City area. I was sitting with Mark in a deacon’s meeting when he attempted to resign because a family situation made him feel he had failed us. Those wonderful men gathered around him and refused to let him step down because his assistance was still needed.

We have been through births, weddings, funerals, church staff coming and going. We welcomed others into the church and deacon ministry together for all these years. I worried and prayed with his family as he struggled through past illnesses that might have been his end at those times. God was not done with him then.

When he was ordained into the gospel ministry and joined the church staff to help minister to those that were in the hospital or had problems that kept them from the rest of the congregation when we met together, I was there. I knew he had been a lay minister for years before that.

Our families grew. Our children left home. We lost friends and family. We cried and prayed together. I visited him in the hospital. He came to see me as well. We have stood hand in hand around staff and other church members. We have grieved with other families who have lost fathers, mothers, brothers, sisters, children, and friends.

Now I will be with his family as they mourn. What can I say to them? God gave me a thought last night. When Jesus came to get Mark as we are told He will for each of His children, everyone that he knew who have accepted Christ was in Heaven when he arrived. They had not been waiting for him. There is no time with God. His family greeted him. My family is with him. He is visiting with deacons that we served with. Some of our high school classmates are there. His wife, children, and grandchildren are there.

We do not know it because we are under the God given restraints of time and space. When He said, “Let there be light” and created everything, time also began. Mark does not miss any of us as we miss him. “A day is like a thousand years and a thousand years is as a day.” Did he notice Lynn wasn’t by his side? No. She is a believer and is waiting for time to join him. Her heart is broken. We must comfort her and encourage her and the children to follow Mark’s example. He believes that “to live is Christ and to die is gain.” We discussed what that meant and agreed that we accepted it. We did not know what that truly meant. Mark now knows. Save me a place in the choir, brother.

Learn not to challenge Yahweh

We know that Sennacherib will not conquer Judah, but in 2 Chronicles 32 Assyria attempts to invade Jerusalem. Refer to 2 Kings 18. The words spoken against Yahweh are the reason for the failure of Judah’s enemy. We are told that a messenger of the Lord annihilated these forces. This impressed others and Hezekiah had regained popularity. Even this godly King was not perfect. Neither are we. As he did, we must realize our sin and repent to gain forgiveness. His errors lead to the later destruction of his country. His son Manasseh succeeded him.

We return to 2 Chronicles 33 to read about King Manasseh. The story is basically the same except this version mentions he sacrificed children in the fire, not just a son. We also learn how he was removed from his office by being captured by the Assyrians and taken to Babylon. He repented and asked for Jehovah’s help which he received and was returned to Jerusalem. He had a second chance. This makes a significant difference in the story.

When Amon becomes King of Judah, he does not follow his father’s later example but the earlier actions. “Train up a child as he should go and when he is old, he will not depart from it.” Manasseh failed Amon, by not worshiping the Lord when his son was younger. Parents listen to this lesson.

©Copyright 2020 by Charles Kensinger

There is nothing new under the sun?

The title of our next book is Ecclesiastes. Chapter 1 calls the writer the teacher or preacher. He begins by declaring that everything is useless. The world is nothing but repetitious. Anything we do today must be done again tomorrow.

Verse nine says that there is nothing new on this planet. If this is incorrect, then the Bible does contain errors. We know that is not possible. How can this statement be true? Remember Genesis six and the flood in the time of Noah. An objection to the validity of that story is the likelihood of the ancients being able to build a structure like the Ark. Thousands of years passed before the flood and people lived to be hundreds of years old. It would make sense that their technology would exceed even ours. Especially when we look at all the examples of monuments from the prehistoric world that are inexplicable with what we consider caveman knowledge.

We just finished reading Proverbs. This is the major book of wisdom written by King Solomon. He declares that even wisdom is vanity. A man who began his journey with such promise has now become discouraged and disillusioned. Remember that by this time he had wandered from Jehovah and built temples for his wives to other deities. When we walk away from the Lord we often lose confidence in anything.

When you are King, you have endless options for distractions as in Ecclesiastes 2. If we are depressed, we usually binge eat. You may clean, watch TV, read or something else. Solomon tried pleasure, work, and many other ideas. How do your distractions help you overcome a feeling of worthlessness?

I have discovered that studying God’s word works for me. Have you tried that? Does reading along with us give you a feeling of purpose? This may benefit me because I must read along with you.

Solomon refused himself nothing. This may be the problem. Most of us have goals that give us something to look forward to. My writing and sharing it with you gives me that hope. Look for something that you enjoy and challenges you. Most of all, ask God what His plan is for you. Then follow Him, unlike this King.

There is a time for everything as given in Ecclesiastes 3. Let’s look at some of these that you may not have noticed previously. A time to mourn and a time to dance. Many of us Baptists want that one removed. We prefer to mourn and do not think we should dance. Be like Solomon’s father, David, dance when Jehovah needs to be praised.

A time to search and a time to give up. When do you quit? It depends on what you are searching for. As a child, we stop looking for shoes or other things we need for school, if we don’t want to go. As adults we accept defeat, when we feel defeated and want to give up. Do not stop without talking to God first.

Hoarders need to listen to the time to keep and a time to throw away. I need to remember there is a time to be silent and a time to speak. Some of my quieter friends need to talk more often. I don’t have that problem.

“Everything is beautiful in its own time.” Now you know where Ray Stevens found that line. He just changed one word. You have eternity inside of you. Yahweh put it there. The King’s negative mood is the result of his rejection of the Lord. He does admit that if God does something, it will last. What we do on our own, will not. He also tells us that we are no better than animals. Once again, his personal feelings are expressed. We know differently from what Jehovah tells us.

The dead are better off than the living and in Ecclesiastes 4 the unborn have it best of all. Talk about being depressed. All achievement springs envy. Three strikes and he’s out.

Two are better than one starts out positive but turns negative when he says to pity those who are alone. He comes back positive again with “A cord of three strands is not easily broken.” This is often used regarding marriage. The third strand is Jehovah. 

Sacrifice was often viewed by the Hebrews as the correct form of worship. In Ecclesiastes 5 tells us that listening to what Yahweh must tell us is better than sacrifice. Promises to God should be taken seriously. Today we often make deals with Him in times of trouble. Be careful what you tell Him. He could take what you promise despite yourself.

Money is a definite problem for all of us. If we do not have enough, we worry. Good finances also cause us to be distressed. The wealthy usually are concerned with the possibility of losing their high estate. Our faith needs to be in Jehovah and not in our ability to earn a living.

We continue thoughts on prosperity in Ecclesiastes 6. The King believes that it is impossible to enjoy one’s wealth and challenging work. He declares it all useless. We can have peace whether we are poor or rich if we rely on the Lord. The vanity of the King is the result of disobedience. Guilt over this has caused his anguish. 

©Copyright 2020 by Charles Kensinger